Alarm didn't go off this morning
My freaking alarm did not go off this morning! I use my "cellphone" as my alarm. The battery was low when I went to bed last night, but I thought it would have enough of a charge to make it. Well I guess I was wrong. The alarm which was set for 8:30am did not go off. I woke up at 12:30pm, on my own. I was not happy about that!

So it is now 1:15 pm and my phone is being "charged up." Now I feel as though I've "wasted" the better part of the day! That sucks cause when you work nights, it seems as though time just really flies by. Not the time at work, but the time away from work. That's the time that just flies by. It's sickening.

Naturally then when I'm not at work, I try my hardest to do the things I want to do. And if that means reading a book all day, that's what I'll do! Time is just very expensive when you work nights. And as the saying goes, "time is money."

Enough of the bull for now. I'll be back later.

nighty night time
Well it seems as though I have successfully evaded having to spend any time with my uncle today at least. That was a good thing. I'm just not in the mood for him, nor will I ever be.

I watched Kill Bill Vol. 1, it stunk! I liked part 2 much better. Strange cause usually it's the other way around. Oh well. At least I watched the damn thing, I didn't totally waste my money.

Am still wondering whether to continue this new online blogging thing of mine-this one that it. My other one will remain. I just am not sure about this one. One because I already journal on a normal journal made with paper, lol. I know the "tree-huggers" would appreciate it if I went "paperless," but what do they really know?

Oh well. Just have to keep coming back to see if I'm still around.

I went into a "chatroom" for the first time in a while to test my mic. The mic works fine to my surprise. The chat was the same old crap I used to hear when I used to go there months ago. I don't think I've missed anything at all!

I don't see anything wrong with going to a chatroom, but if it becomes the focus of the day then there's some problems. It kind of used to be my focus, only because I was unemployed and didn't really have anything better to do, besides drink. Now that I'm back to working, I really don't want to even bother going to those rooms. They "eat" alot of my time with worthless BS.

Thanks Jennifer for letting me finally see you on cam! Good night, hun!

This is easy!
Why is it that this blog is so much easier to write for than my "other" blog? I mean the sentences seem to flow effortlessly on here as opposed to struggling to put 2 sentences together. Why so much easier here?

blog and watch movie?
I didn't think this would be possible, but here I am I'm watching Kill Bill Vol. 1 and blogging! Hey Jennifer, can you see me now? Actually this movie is getting a bit dull right now, so that explains my blogging.

My uncle accidentally opened my bedroom door thinking it was the room he is staying in. Good thing I wasn't doing anything "silly!" (you know what I mean, jellybean?).

So, I waited this long to watch this movie and I'm getting a little bit bored with it. I do like the concept of being able to download movies though. I've got to do this more often. Well, so long for now.

Brother in-law here
Oh god, my brother-in law is here with my sister. I can't stand him. He's an accountant with a big house and Mercedes Benz. I'm not jealous of him, I just never did like him. Even before he went to college he was dating my sister and I never liked him back then.

He just doesn't have a personality. I don't know what in the hell my sister ever saw in the creep. He seems like he could be the next Scott Peterson. He just makes me sick. Maybe that's why he's talking to my uncle right now. They deserve each other. They are both "clueless" as to what is really important in life.

Oh well, just another person to ignore today. I even ignore my sister for the most part. I feel as though she was "bought out" by her husband's family. I can't stand any of them. They all suck! The only "family member" I like is my mom and her sister my aunt. Everyone else can go to hell as far as I'm concerned!

Sunday morning-NOT
Mood:  not sure
Woke up at 2:30pm. Did not intend on sleeping that late. Oh, well.

Looks like I woke up just before my uncle did. I took my shower, came up to go outside and smoke and saw him just going up the stairs to talk to his sister (my mom). Glad I didn't have to wait for him to go to the bathroom cause that would have pissed me off.

Then I go outside to smoke only to realize my dad is outside doing something in the yard. I really did not want to run into him so I stayed in the garage and smoked. I feel like a "prisoner" in my own home.Then again I don't really feel as though this is my home cause I'm only here temporarily.

So, it's Sunday, the only real day off that I have. And I'm not in the best of moods. I don't want to have anything to do with my uncle. I don't want to spend any time whatsoever with him. Matter of fact I'm pissed a comment he made last night when I first saw him.

He was with my mom, they had picked me up from my AA mtg. We get home and I get out of the car. My uncle looks at me and says, "you look fat!" I'm like you stupid fucking idiot. I didn't say that, but I was thinking it. I have lost a quite a bit of weight since he last saw me last year. For him to say that was totally stupid and ignorant. My mom stuck up for me and said, "he looks good, look at him."

I don't know why I'm putting my thoughts "online" like this. I'm not even sure whether I'll continue to do so. I do have a regular journal which I do write in everyday. Am I wasting my time putting my thoughts on an "online journal?" I'm not sure.

Well, I do have things to do today. I need to watch my movie I downloaded. It's been sitting in my computer for over 2 weeks now. I hope my uncle does not want to spend time with me cause he's in for a surprise. I want nothing to do with him and I can't wait until he goes back to New York already!

So what
It's 4am and I'm still awake! It's my fault, but still I wasn't planning on staying up this late. I got "tied-up" on the phone with a female friend of mine. We had a "good time." I usually do when I talk to this friend of mine.

My uncle is here from out of town and I've been avoiding him like the plague. He just talks way too much! And he doesn't have a two-way conversation, he does all the talking, that sucks and I'm not about to get "stuck" with him. I know he's my uncle and all, but I'm about to let him know he talks to much. I'm basically going to have to tell him to "shut up" to make my point clear with him.

Hey if I offend him, I offend him. That's life. I'm not one for "hiding" my emotions. You pretty much get what you see from me. I don't like phonies and therefore I hate to be a phony. I do tend to "hide certain things" from people, but that's usually my way of being defensive from any possibility of being "burned" later down the road. It's happened once too many time to me in the past.

Speaking of my past, I've had a former girlfriend trying to call me up witin the past month. I've not returned any of her calls, nor do I plan of it. We did not leave on good terms. Her last words to me were, "lose my number." Well, that's exactly what I did. I lost her number. However, she managed to keep my number. What for? She should begin her message with an apology if she really wants to talk to me.

Well, I know most of this post is bullshit, but hey--So what??? Who cares? Don't like what you see here, go to another blog. This blog is about me and how I interact with the world I live in. If you are interested, keep coming back, if not, oh well.

Well, it's late, got to get some sleep before tomorrow comes around. Got to make sure I'm wide awake to deal with my uncle. If he knows what's good for him, he will stay away from me in the morning, cause I'm not one to be messed with in the morning! Hopefully, I'll get up early enough to get some stuff done around the house. And have time to talk to my friend.

Friend, you know who you are! I can see you reading this! I won't mention your name here unless you want me to (I'll spare the good stuff). I can also give you an "alias" so that your identity is concealed from the web-trolls! I can't believe it's now almost 4:30am. I almost feel like staying awake now. Hmmm?

No, better not. I've got to watch a movie I rented like 3 weeks ago, "Kill Bill Vol.1." The movie download "expires" in a couple of days and I paid money for it. Goes to show I'm not much of a movie person. Though I did briefly consider going to the theater to see something, anything. Haven't been to the theater in ages. I don't know what even playing.

But I'd rather go to the bookstore tomorrow so that I can watch all the cute females at the mall! I love going to the mall and just watching people. Something about seeing them interact with others and their own families. Gets me out of my own head. (Which, at times can be a bad neighborhood).

If I do go to the bookstore, I need to make certain that I don't buy "another book!" I've got several books here stacked up and ready to read. I read alot, but I don' need to buy anymore books. I need to remember that tomorrow should I go to the library.

Jennifer, remind me not to buy any books if I go to the library! (If you don't, I'll have to spank you)!

BTW, I had a nice time last night, Jennifer hun. It felt good to tell you the "entire truth" about myself. I feel as though the closet has been cleared of all skeletons! I hate being that way, but as I said, I've been burned one too many times in the past. People change, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. I hope you don't change on me! (It's okay though if I make you feel better). That's allowed. Yes indeed. Come on now, I see you smiling. Admit it. If you've gotten to this part you must be smiling or someting.

Well until next time....